I don’t know why I was so afraid, if that’s the right word, to be on my own again. I have the world’s most supportive friends and let’s be honest – I am much healthier now I’m not going out all the time. I wasn’t overly happy with my appearance and my clothes were feeling a bit tighter than they were before when I first bought them. I just wasn’t Niamh towards the end. I was putting the wrong person first but at the time I didn’t see that.